it's the choices we make ,

that make us who we are .

this is another night, that i am hating on everyone, sigh .

i love zaccy :)

i've found someone cute nerrrr c:

I can't really ever keep anyone around long enough , to show them who I am . I don't trust anyone . But those who have walked into my heart before , aren't forgotten .

joel piper <3

If you forget all my other words, remember these: when you find the one thing in your life you believe in above anything else, you owe it to yourself to stand by it —- it will never come again . And if you believe in it unwaveringly, the world has no other choice but to see it as you do, eventually. For who knows it better than you? Don’t be afraid to take a difficult stand . Find the one thing that matters —- everything else will resolve itself.

^ yes please .

i want/ need to be a better person .

How many times have you tried to talk to someone about something that matters to you, tried to get them to see it the way you do? And how many of those times have ended with you feeling bitter, resenting them for making you feel like your pain doesn't have any substance at all? Like when you've split up with someone, and you try to communicate the way you feel, because you need to say the words, need to feel that somebody understands just how pissed off and frightened you feel. The problem is, they never do. 'Plenty more fish in the sea,' they'll say, or 'You're better off without them,' or 'you can do better than them anyway', They never really understand, because they haven't been there, every day, every hour. They don't know the way things have been, the way that it's made me, the way it has structured my world. They'll never realize that someone who makes you feel bad may be the person you need most in the world. They don't understand the history, the background, don't know the memories that hold me up. Ultimately, they don't know me well enough, and they never can. Everyone's alone in their world, because everybody's life is different.

"It's only after we've lost everything that we're free to do anything."

<3

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I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when their right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust noone but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together .

Let go when you’re hurting too much . Give up when love isn’t enough , & move on when things are not like before because there is someone out there who will love you even more , surely then , you will know true love .

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if i tell you i care about you . i mean it . don't waste my time .

to the world you may be one person .
but to one person you could be the world .

love .

Love is a funny thing . You expect it to be easy . You expect it to be a world of roses and laughs and perfect moments that you find only in movies . You expect her/him to always say the right thing , and always know exactly how you feel , or exactly how to react to it . You expect her/him to calm you down when you're yelling or to chase you when you run away . You expect so much that you feel entirely , and utterly defeated when something doesn't exactly match up with all your plans . But that's the thing . Love isn't a plan . It doesn't have a certain beginning and it certainly has no end or visible finish line to those deeply in it . Love happens ; it is so incredibly messy . People around you can't comprehend why you do the things you do , or why you fight so hard for something that seems to cause you so much pain , because simply , they can't see . They can't see the invisible ring of insanity that surrounds you when you're in love . It's inconvenient and painful and devastating at times , but we can't live without it . What you don't learn is how hard love is . How much work it takes . How much of ourselves we have to put into it . How it isn't worth it until we are complete and utter idiots about it . Love isn't her/him calming you down when you yell . It's her/him yelling , just as loud , just as hard , right back at you , right in your face to wake you up and to keep you grounded . It isn't her/him bringing you roses everyday or cute things that make your relationship appear more presentable . It's after a long fight , that drains the life and bones right out of you both, and yet her/him showing up at your door the next morning anyway . It's not her/him saying all the right things or knowing exactly how to handle you . So no, it's not her/him caressing your hair and telling you everything is going to be alright . It's her/him standing there , admitting she's/he's just as scared as you are . You have to remember that with love , you're not the only one involved . You've unknowingly put your life , your heart into the palms of another persons hands and said , here . Do what you will . Break it into a thousand pieces . Or forget I ever handed it to you . As long as you have it . It makes us crazy . It makes reality invisible and it erases all the lines that we shouldn't cross . Because love isn't about fencing ourselves in ; feeling safe , feeling sure about the future . It's about scaring the shit out of every nerve in our body , but pushing forward anyway . Because all the fighting and all the tears and all the uncertainty is worth it . And it's a hell of a lot better , than being 100% happy without someone to show us that there is a world of a difference between feeling 'happy' and feeling whole .

I want to meet people with real

strength, integrity, loyalty and

respect . i want to meet real

people . Unless you show me

any of these qualities ,

you are nothing to me .

.

you will never really know
anything about me except for
what is physically there before you .

:)

Nothing lasts forever, so live it up, drink it down, laugh it off, avoid the bullshit, take chances and never have regrets, because at one point everything you did was exactly what you wanted.

The past is just a memory, so live for the moment .

single .

i want one person that i can be my complete self around, someone that will care for me as much as i would care for them, i want to finally put in effort with someone, and have them put in effort for me too, i want one person to be the reason i smile all day, the one person i cannot get off my mind, i dont want no short bullshit relationships anymore, i want someone decent, that will stick by me through whatever happens, as i would stick by them whenever they needed. i want someone different, someone who wont say things they dont mean, someone who likes to be themself and not only respects everyone else but also themself . someone who wont lie there way out of things, someone who doesnt cheat . im yet to find someone different from all the rest .

i DONT want someone that says the same thing to everyone else .

might i add, i think i have found him :)

and maybe we can be that couple that nobody can stop that love coming from each others hearts .